a m e a m e - [listen to the rain]

Nogh.

2004-10-12T15:22:00.000-07:00

Yes, I believe 'nogh' is teh correct term. >< WHY, DAMNIT!? WHY DID I GET A BLOGGER!? I use LJ so much more.. And now my thing died on both!? WHY!? Maybe I should just completly CLEAR my LJ. And start over. Like a NORMAL person. Continue etc. and ignore this dying thing. But.. I don't want to lose either THESE entries OR the entries from my old LJ! ARGH! But.. I want my LJ to live, not die.. And.. TT_TT I died. -flops around-

No one reads this, but people check my LJ. +1, LJ
Sam and Katie and Maria and all my communities are on LJ. +3, LJ
I'm stoooopid. +1, LJ. +1, Blogger, -5000, me
I <3 my LJ. +1, LJ
I <3 this places format-- so perdeh! +1, Blogger
Blogger dosn't ahve communities. -1, Blogger
LJ is dead, and goes on and off. -1, LJ

Lessseee~ LJ: 5 Blogger: 1

Okee-doke. Goodby blogger. TT_TT Maybe I can make my LJ perdeh...? And nice? Yes! I'll do that! Now, whatabout all my previous dead posts? x_X No. Clue.

Bye bye, Blogger! Due to my -5000 points, I may be back, but I doubt that!

"That day, Sasuke learned the true meaning of the phrase 'up yours'."

2004-10-11T17:35:00.000-07:00

ashita haretara
ano umi e yoko
kimi wa nagashita
harumi no itami wa

Lyrics from July 1st, probably not right.. But oh well. XD Too lazy to look for the right ones, and I have to get off practically ASAP, but I have to post otherwise this thing will die. XD No dying allowed. Suu.. Yesterday.. I.. o_O Don't remember what I did of notice. This morning, I went apple-picking and then went bowling, had a lovely/non-lovely conversation with a couple of people, and Maria I believe launched a last-ditch attempt to use herself as comic-relief. Sankyuu~ Ria-chan! Without you, teh seriousness would have prevailed. I'm actually not surpised Katie guessed, though.

Su.. Anyway. Boring day. Nothing special. School tomorrow. Ick. >_@ I'm a zooommmbbiiieeee~ -twitch-

Your crazy webmistress.

2004-10-10T17:38:00.000-07:00

o_O It's.. A random Satoshi-wannabe that I drew. XD Ain't he perdeh?! I thought not! This is, in fact, an excuse for a lack postage today. Much, much to lazy. x_X

Krad Hikari Costume

2004-10-09T16:53:00.000-07:00

The lights go out
The bridges burn
Once you go you can't return
And I'm still here..

Lyrics are from Vertical Horizon's 'I'm Still Here'-- same as yesterday, though today I remembered to credit. ^^" Today.. I have mixed feelings. Morning to mid afternoon? Wonderful. Me and mom worked on my Krad costume NON-STOP, and we got the entire coat (NOT A DRESS!) done-- and I look like a football player. XD It's SO wide on the shoulders and there's nothing we can do. Other than that, though, it looks great. I got news that Carly has started on her Kikyo one, and has the hakama pants done, which is awsome. Everone else needs to get cracking, or they won't make it! -noddage-

After that, though, we had a make-shift birthday party for mom that kind of sucked.

Dad can't cook-- and he made dinner. In result, I ate Ramen instead of what he made, but it took all dinner to make. My card for mom was crappy, she got sucky birthday presents, and a muffin with a candle in it. TT_TT Overall, she most likely had a REAALLLYYY~ sucky birthday. It makes me sad.

Tomorrow I'm going kickboxing in the morning again, and then going to Chloe's at two. Yay! Fuuunnnn~!

Yea.. Listening to song at top.. Searching for a picture to use in webdesign for it.. Not working. ;x; Baii~ Your crazy, insane, psycopatic webmistress.

"...I just realized I'm stuck in a car with a bishie."

2004-10-08T16:10:00.000-07:00

The cities grow
The rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here..

"..and I just realized I'm stuck in a car with two psycotic fangirls."

XD I went over to Ben's house-- you know, vampire Ben/Ban-chan? It was fun~ We dragged John with us.. *_* Biiiisshhhhiiiiiieeeeeeee~ -drool- I think we scared them.. A bit. We played video games and music and talked... And Ben talked to.. Erm.. His cat. No one could breathe, we were laughing so hard. I glomped John multiple times, clung to him once, called him pretty to many times to count, and called Ben pretty once. John ran away a good couple of times, and did sumersaults in the hall to be 'stealthy' too many times to count. It was amusing/fun. I began explaining *that* inside joke/incident, and now Ben calls me a lesbian. Oh joy of all joys. Did he not see me *all* over John the *entire* time?! Obviously I like *some* guys.

Me and Maria restrained ourselves, we were not fangirly... That much. >_>" I did mention jumping on Ben ONCE.. But that was it.

Soo.. I had fun. This is a reaaallly brief entry, but I'm bored and feel like making a web-design, so I'm off to do that..

i Oi es VIERNES... CHEVARE !

Oddly Amusing Quote

2004-10-07T13:28:00.000-07:00

"The lieutenant hung his head, feeling, in this presence, that he did not know how to be correctly wounded."

XD I found that really funny.

..okay, back to homework, moving on...

"Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose."

2004-10-07T11:59:00.000-07:00

So what
I'm better off everyday
When I'm standing in the pouring rain
I don't mind
I think of you and everything's all right
I used to think I had it good
But now I know I misunderstood

Daily lyric from today, yesterday, and the last week-- Ashlee Simpson, 'Better Off'. I'm so boring arn't I?

Today was, over all very strange in the way that it was GOOD. I had fun in almost all of my classes, and I'm actually looking forward to Girl Scouts tonight. Hopefully I'm going to the movies with Ben, John and Maria tomorrow. TT_TT How mom's going to get over the fact I'm going to the movies with a GUY or two only kami knows. She's so overprotective, she won't let me see Ghost In Shell 2: Innocence-- even though it's the only anime in theatres now. (and not really my top choice anyway) It looks way too steriotypically violent.

Not that the guys wouldn't be happy about that. Alas, I don't think I saw giant robots. ..Or was there? >_> I was thinking about dragging them to a chick flick. XD That would be fun/painful... 'Raise Your Voice' with Hilary Duff comes out tomorrow, too.. XDXDXD -evil plotting-

Anyway, ran the mile today in PE. -noddage- I.. BEAT MY OTHER TIMES INTO THE GROUND! -cheers- Last year I got like 12:30, then I got 11:59 first time this year (trial run) and for the real one.. Today... I got 11:05! Wh000000~ <3 I should run more, maybe I don't suck as much as I previously thought.. Hm... XD

I also didn't have to do my debate today, so I can time it, but I most definatly have to do it tomorrow. TT_TT He like, called us up and then said 'Wait! No! Nevermind! Let the other people go!' and I was all... ^^" Phew.

The quote in the subject is from english class, and I liked it so I stolded it~ <3 Isn't it nice? I need to use it as a tag-line for a short story.. It'd be cool. -noddage- I still don't like the layout I made.. I must (figure out how to use the blogger code) make a new one.. TT_TT Ah well.

Yesterday, I didn't post for a couple of reasons, and all of them start with 'H'-- homework, homework, homework, & hell. (read: library duty) I had to reshelve books in a public library for TWO HOURS straight. And the only thing that kept me sane was... The unbelievably seksay bishie that was there the entire time. He looked like he was from a J-rock band! He looked like.. Like.. Tetsu from L'Arc en Ciel~! And I should know! I was all *_* and walked past the isle he was standing in like three times on purpose. Eyecandy~ XD He stared at me strangly after the first few times, though. White shirt, silver earring on left ear.. Maybe around 17... He was hot. XD

I then had hell-loads of homework, which I did all of (teh suck ><) and then.. I went to bed. Exciting day, ne? Thought not.

Other thing that happend today that was strange/odd/amusing.. I got off the bus and these three eighth grade boys were standing next to each other (same height) and they all looked slightly annoyed/purposefull, and one had a hand on his hip and they all had like 'S' postures and I was all 'Oh my god Charlie's Angels! XD' I started cracking up and people stared. -had fun-

For some reason that reminds me.. One of those boys was with Tyler Gritis at the Roadrunner Extravaganza at my old school riding around on the back of his bike glomping his shoulders. Me and Maria were all.. *_* Oh my kami~ We stalked them. XD

Erm... End of scary rambles for today. I had fun writing that.

Bai~ -random scary webmistress signing off- <3 <3 <3

2004-10-06T17:52:00.000-07:00

XD I just realized how FUGLY the other picture looked when downsized. Here's something perdeh to balence it out! >_> The layout looks MUCH better than that when it's full size.

2004-10-06T17:49:00.000-07:00

To make up for, err.. Lack of postage today (ACK! MATH HOMEWORK!) here is the design for the blog layout I'm working on. Feedback would be lovely! <3 I'll post today's happenings tomorrow-- be ready for a large post. XD

This Amused Me and Katie.. A LOT.

2004-10-05T13:29:00.000-07:00

I spilt my coffee
It went
All over your clothes
I've gotta wear
Mine
Now

Parent Guides to J-rock:

Message:

1) Don't worry, your kid probably isn't gay, even though the pics hanging next to their bed looks like girls.

2) Don't get your kid an English CD for their birthday or any other gift giving holiday, they probably won't like it.

3) When they show you a pic of their favorite singer, don't instantly assume that it's a girl, it probably isn't.

4) If you walk into the room while they are on the computer and they minimize the window instantly, don't be offended, it's probably for your own protection.

5) Don't be suprised if their total clothing and make-up style changes.

6) If they start speaking a language that is almost English, but not quite, don't worry. Its called "Engrish". You'll get used to it.

7) Don't insult their favorite J-Rockers.

8) When they start talking about Lucifer, they aren't worshiping Satan.

9) Buy more ink jet cartridges for the printer, the more pics the fan has, the happier they will be.

10) Don't be suprised when you can no longer talk to your child about anything except Japan.

11) Be prepared to learn more than you ever had, about something you never wanted to know about.

12) A man in a dress is sexy, no matter what you say, nothing can change that.

13) Don't correct them when they spell the name "hide" with a lower case h, that's how it's done.

14) When they collect scrap fabrics to make plushies, don't worry, they aren't practicing voodoo.

15) It doesn't matter that they don't know what the singers are saying, don't bother arguing about it.

16) J-Rock isn't a phase and they won't grow out of it.

XDXDXD That... was most lovely. <3 Daily song up at the top is the same as yesterday, 'Better Off' by Ashlee Simpson. D00d, I love that song. Today, was, overall, a very good day. It appears that Naruto is NOT dead, which you will soon see as I post up the page, and we got some lovely Itachi flashbacks. Ohh.. He's perdeh. *_* Not as perdeh as Sasuke, and not as lovely and seksay and NICE, but perdeh. He will be.. Killed quickly. Has Sasuke decided to beat Itachi on his OWN!? BRAVO! -clappness-

I have a bunch of homework today, but.. -starry eyes- The person I like.. Might like me? Maybe? A little? This is my heart trying to trick my mind, isn't it? Oh well.. Being a fangirl, hints at pairings will suffice. Just as it is in the real world. XD

My costume is coming together, and I can slip it on over my shoulders by now. It's a bit confuzzling.. But I think I can work it out well enough to enter it into the amature design contest at the con! Yay! I'm going to the movies this weekend with Maria.. And Ben.. And John.. XD Ginji and BAN-CHAN! I'm SO~ going to tease them about it being a 'date' the entire time.

Okay, off to do my homework.. I have a _LOT_. TT_TT I will upload that Naruto page, though.

<3 PEACE & HAPPINESS~ Your blog-mistress-ish-person.

2004-10-05T12:45:00.000-07:00

EE~ HE OPENED HIS EYEEE~ And.. MADE SOUND! -squeal- HE'S ALIVE (I THINK) EEEEEEE~ Alive alive alive alive aliiiivvveeee~

Finally, something.. NON-ANGSTY!

2004-10-04T15:26:00.000-07:00

The sky is falling
And it's
Early in the morning
But it's okay
Somehow...

Well, for the first time, people, a HAPPY (sort of) NON-ANGSTY (mostly) POST, by YOURS TRUELY~ Me. <3 <3 <3

Lyrics up top from Ashlee Simpson's "Better Off", my song of the moment. I'm quite.. Cheerful, now, for some odd reason. It's strange, considering the ENTIRE first part of the day I felt horribly sick and very, very depressed. Almost started crying three times, once in English (mom), once in Lunch (Naru-channn~ TT_TT), and once in Science (mom again). This morning (early, early) mom informed me that my 'B' in Science was UNNEXCEPTABLE~ and dad screeched at me that I had to get all A's. Fun fun. Mom later informed me 'I don't believe in you having to get all A's!' Actions over words, mother dearest.

ANYHOW~ All angst aside, I got all my homework done, made a blog for my friend, cheered up a bit about Naruto-chan, doodled, sang a bit, and wished I was at an anime convention. Over all, a bunch of lovely things.

The weirdest thing happened to me on teh bus this afternoon.. I put on my Naruto headband (Hinata-style) as I left school, as no one could yell at me for it because they're crazy and consider it a gang symbol as I was actually out of school, and I got on teh bus, and suddenly-- POW~! I felt like I was at an anime convention... Or Sam's house. I smelled pocky! XD And I was all.. 'O_O I wanna be at a coooonnnnn~ TT_TT' XD

So now I can't wait to get to teh AnimeUSA con~ It'll be great, dispite my non-sleeping-there-ness. Next time I gotta mooch offa someone with coolio 'rents. XD

NEWS UPDATE: Dad was down here, with an all 'We need to talk about this speech', which I ignored completly, before repeating to him politly/detachedly that I can handle my own life and to go away. XD That's what I told mom, too~ Guilt at first, now I feel good cause I actually said what I meant! Wh00! Go me!

Anyway, I'm feeling better. I'm kind of glad, because stress headaches and knotted stomachs are SUU~ unfun~

<3 <3 <3 from your resident blogess~!

2004-10-04T13:39:00.000-07:00

Naruto has to live to be hokage! He can't die! C'mon, Naru-chan! Live, damn you! -glompnuzzle- Just so you know, this is my idea of a happy, non-depressing post at the moment.

2004-10-03T09:37:00.000-07:00

Kakashi.. Did he get there in time? *wibble*

More Angst. Joy of all joys.

2004-10-03T09:24:00.000-07:00

What is this, 'angst month', or something? Normally, October is my favorite month in the entire year.. I mean, screw my birthday, Halloween is the best holiday ever! It's gorgeous outside, rains often, and I can wear everything I like wearing. I was planning for a FUN Halloween this year, because-- WOW! --I get to go to an Anime con Halloween weekend! But, unfortunatly, something popped up on my schedule that wasn't supposed to be there, and it took me by surprise.

Naruto, my FAVORITE CHARACTER from my FAVORITE MANGA of ALL TIME, died-- and he was killed by Sasuke, his best friend. Now, this information is not 100% sure or correct-- all I have to refer from is the last chapter of the manga that came out, which, in fact, ended with Naruto lying on the ground, seemingly quite thoroughly DEAD. Refer to the above post, which is the scanlation.

After seeing it, I walked around in shock for a good hour, before I went to bed, forcing dad to listen to my rants about how Naruto didn't deserve to die and how Naruto (the manga) was really just like real life. Then I cryed myself to sleep.

I don't think I can cry anymore. I'm really, really sad-- to the point where my heart is numb and my body is forcing me to act normally. Naru-chan can't die, too many people would miss him. Sasuke, Iruka, Sakura, Kakashi, Tsunade.. What will they do? He was Konaha's hope, he was Konaha's strongest... And if he dies, what will they all do without him?

If he dies, he'll die loved.

This post is a memorial. We should all pray for Naruto, (stupid as it may seem) and hope he makes it through, cause I feel like I know him. I feel like an idiot, but I feel like an idiot that knows him.

Lovely Way To Start

2004-09-29T15:14:00.000-07:00

Normally, when starting a blog off, you don't begin by saying how sucky the day was. Or the month. Or the year. Normally, I wouldn't start off without a layout. Or something good to say.

But those went down the drain.

I did make a layout, and I worked really hard on it. I did the design, and edited the pictures.. It looks great and clean. But I didn't code it, because I suck at coding. And, of course, took another look at the design I spent a good three hours on and decided I hated it. And I can't just use a linkware one, because I have something to prove. And at the moment, I'll never prove it-- just like I'll never prove to my dad that I can sew or my teachers that I'm a fscking idiot.

My mom is so 20th century that she dosn't know what a blog is, and that she won't let me wear all black or take out books from the adult section of the library. For gods sake the woman won't let me read OT+ manga!

And, to top it all off...

I have the biggest crush on someone who will never, ever like me back. At the moment I want to be proved wrong about this more than anything. Unfortunatly.. I'm fairly sure they think dirt of me. Not only that, but my stupidity and stubborness has deluded me into thinking that maybe, just MAYBE I have a chance, when in reality I don't. They like someone. I'm not that person.

Well, I'm off to do more work for my classes, which look like they've come from a highschool student's schedule. Honors this, honors that, and two highschool credit courses, one of which I'm most likely going to fail (Algebra 1). Oh, and Science. I'm going to fail that too.

Love and Peace and fscking HAPPINESS.